9/29/2006
pride and prejudice is nice. duh. i watched it? on dvd. hah.. ended at like 3 plus in the morn.. 2 hours 8 min i think. call me a romantic but this movie is really nice. keira's character was totally cool. =D

i think a bitch jammed my blog. it's unnaccessable. she's going down. watch out. just you watch out..


what would cha do if your good fren hates you for no reason? it's still bugging me so.. sigh. sigh. sigh..

here to blog. obviously.. big duh here. well. my blog shall be in the smallest font possible. so no one can see em.

how'd you feel if your fren hates you for no rhyme or reason? i'm like wth did i freaked up do? i mean..she's like picking on me on everything i say. like.. !!! haiix. i hate myself. if it'll salvage our frenship, i'm willing to quit council.. although i REALLY REALLY want it real bad. my own fren doesnt believe i will change for the better.. why'd anyone else? it's just demoralizing, y'know? do frens do that? is it normal? in the end, she'll prolly hate me.. and i dont even know why. ): what should i do? sigh sigh. i didnt feel that bad even when the fact that he'd never like me sunk in. i just felt crushed. depressed. but.. everytime i see him, the world crumbles into pieces.. he's everything i'd want in a guy. his face.. his.. ugh. not the point. her hating me hurts even more. dang i hate myself. i wish i knew why she'd do this. but hating someone for no reason.. is weird, eh? sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh! what should i do? accept it and back off or try to rekindle the past?

i wanna change. she doesnt believe me. instead? hmm.. say i dont deserve to be one. i hate the way i am. i hate the way i dont care about anything. so now i'm tryna change. i listen in class. dont do SUCH weird stuff and everything. does she see that? no. she picks on me. she aint gon c'mere. so crap it. i really really think i should quit council if i get in. it aint worth it. cherilyn, please dont quit if i do too. she'll prolly hate me more.. i think i'm more mature and serious now. seriously. i can count the number of times i actually felt happy today. 6. compared to the usual 20 times? ugh. it's troubling me SO MUCH!! well duh. sisters before anything else. wait. i'm not sure she's my sister anymore. i feel like i barely know her now. we've grown apart? spent too much time doin other stuff? possible. but is that any reason to hate me?! )=

cherilyn. i dont expect you to continue being frens with me unkess you wan to. i know she did a lot for you in your spat with that ass. i cant. i'll back out. i wish there was a lil somethin somethin i could do. i'd do pretty much anything.. too bad i don got the chance. oh and. dont dont choose either and go straight. go to her. its the right thing to do. great. so i lost 2 frens. what a great day this has been! -_-" sarcasm? god. i miss her more than i thought.. sigh..

that felt worse. i blogged it for the world to see. unless you do a lil somethin somethin about the font, i'm afraid you cant see it. (= cherilyn. i know you wont see this. but thank you so much for cheering me up today. without ya, i think i may haf taken the plunge all the way down. spraying and doing the d&t stuff was fun too. =D i loved the part where we just sat there, saying hi to that hot dude. haha. thinkin about it is a lil calming.. thanks TONS!! loves!! you MUST BE A COUNCILLOR TOO!! I'LL QUIT IF YOU DON'T!!!

P:S- i got nominated. will be going for selection camp.. if i'm selected again, i'll go for the interview, if i pass it, councillor!! (: wish me luck! (maybe not cuz i may quit for my frens. sigh? well. yeah. thats how much they mean to me..)

9/28/2006

i have never taken anything more seriously than.. well. councillor stuff. i know. i'm not.. councillor type. but fot the first time in my life, i want something so badly, i'd do pretty much anything! even a crumpler didnt excite that much emos in me. am i.. crazy to think this way? i'm tired of being someone else. i wanna get outta my shell and show.. the REAL me. the better me. dont wanna be a girl who doesnt care about anything except ..MH and stuff. i want to care about the real important stuff. not faked up shit. all i ever worked for were for my materialism. its not something you just.. y'know. want to be since you were born. call it a wake up call for me and i'd agree. i've become so.. serious and worried like never before. growin up? yeah. and maturity kickin in? uh huh.

ever wanted something so bad you'd just die if you dont get it? thats how i feel. i had to write a letter to explain why i wanna be a councillor. i did. i think it was ohkay. i stand a 90% chance of getting in. but if she asks ANY of my teachers if i have the right to be student councillor, i'm DEAD. i mean. duh. i distract the class. make silly comments. dont do my work. dont pay attention. which teacher would say "oh yes, kimberly is a very good pupil. please make her a councillor." -_-" yeah. if you're sarcastic. sigh sigh. suddenly i feel more sensible and guai kia. the realisation of the fact that i may not be a councillor is freaking......................... ohkay. no words to describe. it's just driving me more crazy. in the bad way now. UGH!! i want this so so so so so so so so much!!

cherilyn. you stand a 100% better chance of getting selected. all the best. i pray/wish/hope i wont strangle you when you get chosen and i dont. frens should be happy for each other even when they want something and dont get it and their good fren gets it. easier said than done. but i'll try my best. from now onwards, i'll do something i've never done in my entire life. study. listen in class. yupps. i'll do it. too late? it is. my case is too bad beyond reason..wish me all the best with whatever i'm gonna do to myself when i really dont get chosen. results tomorrow. the chances of me becoming a councillor? 2%. i hate myself.

thanks cherilyn for making me feel slightly better. but i feel pretty low right now. crushed. thanks anyways. i love you, girl. (as a fren.) i really appreciate you tryna make me feel like i'll be chosen and by sacrificing ya self by saying "aiya you sure get chosen de. me? no way!" it helped. a TEENY, minute bit. 2 over a 1000. i feel 2/1000 better. 999? worse. i hate myself and my life.

9/27/2006

what up girl? why'd she have to take my freaked up spot?! like. i mean. doesnt she have to be stressed somewhere else? always "aw i got tuition everyday. worse than you" blah blah blah. now she's taken MY spot just cuz she doesnt like me? fuck up. too bad i aint goin' without a fight. i mean, hello? her type is SUPERFICIAL, HYPOCRITICAL crappy obedient acting, damnit. why the heck is LSC so dumb to think she's really guai kia? urgh. she wants to be in council? that takes a lotta time ohkays. she's the supposed 'guai kia' with no influence on people while i'm the popular not so good one. she's going down. real down. so low.. and she'll never know it's me.. in conclusion. fuck off victoria lim. fuck off.

i went to 'study' today. in victoria a's place. not the sluty, bitchy, whorish asshole, dude. the nice one. we played. =p yea. 'study'.. hah. i havent started. god. i may so drop to NA.. wth. i'm so pissed.

sorry, people. not been blogging long ones. dont care. far too pissed. toodles


the penguin. cold. icy. numb. thats how i feel..

adopt your own virtual pet!

9/26/2006

i came home early today. woo. and. i took a picture of MH's ASS!! his pant's brand's emilee valentino or somethin something. i deleted it,aint perverted kays. well. it wasn't intentional on taking his ass. just. happened to. well. DUH. that was fake?

urgh. i totally wanna be left alone. breathe kimmy, breathe. ohkay.. well. i received a VERY flattering comment from a classmate's sister's fren. god she's so kind. =D since she doesnt come to my blog, i just blogged that. dang it's getting to my head!!! haha. i aint gonna tell you no nothing, dudes. (: hehe.. no clues either. but it's got me all high right now.

i'm getting over him. i will. i must. to be strong for my friends and whatever crap they face, i'll be there. ah well. or maybe i can just take the easy way out and PRETEND. i love the meaning and everything, it means so much, ya know?

i'm getting so pissed with a whole lotta people. i can proudly announce that WE ARE GONNA GET YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID, BITCH. all of us!! ya goin down. and i pride myself in doin the best i can to tear people down. just like the way we're gonna do to you. be scared. be very scared. fear for everything. you. you. you. you. you. you. you. you.

haha that was fun just saying that. crazy today. hyper, shouting, dancing and everything. i kept giving benjamin junk, saying there's a message written by me for him to decipher. he's so naiive and gullible! and he's really nice to talk too too. (double too's, yeah?) i dont like him. stop tripping, yo. fren like.

omg my grand momma's talking to herself. creepy? yup. my neighbour just died.. aw thats totally freaking me out..

9/25/2006

today was totally sucky. number one. i totally flucked my chinese test real bad. second. the dude still hates me. i'm SORRY ohkay. it's my fault and i freaked up know it. third.. my frens are so. UGH. i know she'll see this. but FISH IT, dudes. so i'm pissed. duh. i have every right to be, dont i? i got involved in some sucked up crap and now some freak totally blames me. GREAT. oh and the worst part. my mom. fucked up bitch. gawd that woman cares about the smallest shit. my uniform? fish la. socks also. bag also. WTF?! urgh. she hit my head with the fucked up umbrella and followed me to the MRT station kays.. totally screamed at me and everything. embarassing much? DUH. pig face!!

sorry i'm really really pissed. totally pissed. no mood to blog. yeahs.

except. john tucker must die is really nice. (= well. fine. didnt watch the WHOLE movie. silly stacia's bro had to call ehr over and over again she thought her momma was home so we exited. -_-" her bro. god i'm killing him. ass. whatever.

9/24/2006

Come with me
Stay the night
Just say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do ya expect me to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you've changed
But boy you know your begging don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game
(You know it's just a little too late)

So let me go now
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know...


It's just too little too late
A little too long
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You're just a good chase
So be real
It doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)

Yeah yeaaahhh...
It's just too little too late...
Mhmmm
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate
(You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
And letting you go
I'm loving myself
You got a problem
But don't come asking me for help
'Cause you know...

It's just too little too late
A little too long
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You're just a good chase
So be real
It doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)

I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give
(I have so much to give)
With a player like you
I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live
Ohhhh... mmm nooo
It's just too little too late
Yeaahhhh...

It's just too little too late
A little too long
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You're just a good chase
so be real
It doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)
You know it's just too little too late
You know it's just too little too late

It's just too little too late
A little too long
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You're just a good chase
So be real
It doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)

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it's all true. the lyrics, i mean. *sigh sigh* gonna be a short post again. no mood. well, not much, anyways. hmm. ohkay. now? positively no mood to blog. tata



P:S- YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO LET GIRLS WIN, DWEEB. stupid insensitive jerk, much? totally!! UGH. why can;t you just let me live? always bugging me day and night. expecting me to treat you like god. well. you're NOT, newsflash!! this is the kabillionth time i'm blogging about you so why dont you just get lost?

9/22/2006

phuwee.. i went for detention today. duh. i was late. ohkay. quite fun. played. (= fell asleep. smsed. ate. whatever. i sat there and talked to debra, abigail and annabelle. they're actually quite nice. misundersttod, yup. especially debra. she's quite nice ya'know.

as always, hung with cher and hin wen. crazy. like usual. fun. totally.

aint blogging no mroe. i'm changing my blogskin!!

9/21/2006

you tore my heart open
never sewed it back

you claim you love me
but i can't tell

nothing was done
to prove you cared

you toyed with my feelings
didnt care how i felt

you never asked
how much i loved you

you made me live like a puppet
only when you moved my strings could i move

you made me
look like such a fool

why couldnt you have
told me the truth

my weakness is
that i trusted you

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today was alright, i guess. class was fine. i sat next to christabel and became more.. pyscho then i usually was. i was so damn bold and confident. i felt nothing could get me down. and true enough, nothing did. she even commented how she never saw me so happy before. (= plus i saw matthew close up!! *screams* that dude is freaked up cute, hot and handsome!! urgh!! i love today. i was so dam confident i volounteered to speak infront of the whole class for oral. -_-" lols. christabel asked if i was an attention seeker. the answer is a big NO. i bathe in attention. i so wanna sit with her again. fun!!

and the time i spent with hinny wenny was fun too. =D although i had ta wait for 30 min alone for her? all i did was pack my locker, which is totally the first time in 4 years ohkays. so weird. ^_^ least i found my literature book and calculator. and my locker's much neater. haha.. totally famished when i met her. i ate a fillet o' fish, fries, (some of hers and mine) and a coke. oh, and a nugget. she had stomach pain. poor dudette.. we walked around j8 for quite some time and finally decided to go take neos. ;) been such a long time since i took em. turned out all right. just that i look a lil bit retarded. XD like. ugh. at least i know it too. i may be going to the same tuition centre she goes to too! coolness, yeah? kim <3>

speaking of tution..i have tuition today. 2 more lessons for the entire freaked up year!! woopee!! so dang happy about it!! akakakaakakaka. i'm psycho now too. i cant wait for the hols! i'm gonna study for some time. anyone wanna come along? the more the merrier.. and i totally needa get all of my books outta the locker. nah. wait. SOME of my books. cuz if you see me carrying more then 3 books, you must be hallucinating. i, kimberly, do not and does not carry more than 3 school books at one go. get that freaked up straight. who am i kiddin? even if i bring stuff out, there will be a few books left anyways. i'm gonna go 30 min late. wakakakakaka. which just leaves 1 hour left. lols? that dude totally hates me. but do i care? nooooooo.. i prolly wont see him anymore after this year. thankfully.


i kinda feel sad for DE. he loves her so much. yet. she knows it.. but doesnt feel the same way about him. he's nice and all, why wouldnt cha like him, eh? so, girl. why dont cha think about it and maybe, give him a second chance?

9/20/2006

whenever you're close to me
I feel a trembling inside
And then you approached me that day
Suddenly I feel so high


But I don't want to leave
I'm not worthy of this higher
Being in the light
I'm truly holy but n-now
I'm Confined to this ground
Invisible life


Whenever the rush recedes
My reality melts away
Turning on the TV screen
It appears were all ok


But I don't want to leave
I'm not worthy of this higher
Being in the light
I'm truly holy but n-now
I'm Confined to this ground
Cause I can hear this humble silence
Creep into my house
I know it feels like coming home
But I can't go this time


I'm taking my own chance
To find truth between the lies
it's kinda like just what it is
So I gotta try


So I can hear this humble silence
Creep into my house
I know it feels like coming home
But I can't go this time

Cause I'm not worthy of this higher
Being in the light
I'm truly holy but n-now
I'm Confined to this ground
Cause I can hear this humble silence
Creep into my house
I kno it feels like coming home
But I can't go this time


Invisible life


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omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!! he lives in toa payoh!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!! like one or two stops away from me!! i'm SO STALKIN him!! (= happiest day of my life!! wooopeeeeee!! i'm invinsible!!

it's the first time i ever came home so early in my ENTIRE life kays. 3.10 pm. on a school day. woowees. surprise surprise. i'm shocked myself. i wonder why i'm so.. well, guai now. weirdness!! whats wrong with me? not that i care



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you took my pain
and brought a smile to my face

you took my hand
and walked with me

you made me believe
i could do anything

you took away all my fears
i felt i was on top of the world

you said you love me
i said i did too

but if you really meant it
where are you now?


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i'm terribly confused. terribly unhappy. i'm surrounded by a haze. fooled by deception and lies. i wanna curl up and hide in a bubble. dont want the world to see me. i cant get over him. he's stuck in my head. his voice.. his looks.. everything. what he says (but nothing to me) are so.. it's totally undescribable.. too good for words.

9/19/2006

i wanted to blog a really long post. but i pressed the off button on my computer. and it got switched off. i hadnt saved it yet. so. short one now. i had a really good day today. full of smiles and everything. cept the chinese oral. i was so dang nervous i was shaking and stammering.. went ohkay. if you exclude it all. the stammering and shaking, lols.

had maths. science. literature. art. english. geography. fun. i totally slept in science lesson. i kept getting woken up by the 2 dudes standing at the door. eugene and ragu. they were talking so dam loud. and, of course, ms lao. (or watever its spelled. cant be bothered to care) my head, on the table. face down. chewing bubble gum. listening to songs. lols. in maths class, i was reading the mediator. the book that i lost and had to pay for but eventually found. urgh! art was totally the best. matthew hong is the cutest, hottest and handsomest!! (= i got something of his. aint telling. hehe. hmm. my geo was really bad. 2 over 25. -_-" worst mark ever. english? did oral practises i think. cant remember.. we had a new literature teacher. think she's totally pissed with my class. we so dang noisy..

i actually studied today. miracle. broke record.. like a lot less than an hour. with ashley and wan yee.we bought snacks and i took notes. after that, i went with hin wen and cher to j8. thats when we found something matthew hong (the hot cute handsome dude) has. omg we were so screamin like crazeeey!! he's ARGH. i have to say, better then zac efron. but still. ZE is hotness!! someone remind me to change pw. so many people keep asking me for it. annoyance much. toodals. (try saying it, it sounds funny! lols =D)


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if i said i love you
would you say you love me more?
because if you said so
my heart would soar

and in the end
you really did say so
and not because you were told to do so

it's because i really love you
you said those words of gold
we were both quite happy for quite a while
walking with an extra bounce in our steps

but then you said you were leaving
with that
everything ended


written by hin wen.

9/18/2006

whoa. it's been quite some time since i last blogged, yeah? ohkay fine. i last blogged like 4 days ago. it aint that long for others, but. well. for me, it's weird not to blog at least once every day. yups i'm weird. (= and happy to be too! guess i'll start blogging from friday.. cuz thats when i think i didnt blog... right.

hmm. lets see. friday. erms. drama. oh yes!! drama! (= we got our drama tees.. (for the rest of us that shimmie didnt give.) i really wonder what that girl's prob is. we order S she gives ALL OF US an M. wtf? urgh. so we're all stuck with an M size. we're practically swimming in it.. you might ask why we dont exchange. number one, we cant. and if we really want the size we ordered, mr koh will hafta pay. like, it aint his fault, why make him pay? so. us good people (some only actually) made do with what we had. aint that sweet of us? (= haha whatever. we did gender bending. it's harder than it looks. seriously. even shimmie didnt do that well. althoigh she was pretty good.. as a girl. it aint obvious that she's playing a boy. i didnt do that well either... school. i cant remember. oh yeah!! LSC didnt come. that was like the BEST thing to happen in the whole year in school ohkay? fantastic. we played like idiots. ahah we had a hell lotta fun. ^_^ for eng, a new guy reliefed us. too bad it wasnt matthew hong. man that guy knows he's cute and hot and everything. us girls are totally gushing about him. well, hey. aint often to see a cute teacher kays. thus, this type of reaction. i went for swimming after drama. and going to mac. haha i was late by 30 min. i missed like half the lesson. the dude was so pissed with me.. XD lols. my bad. i cheated. i didnt swim 30 laps. and i missed the training for the gold star. we're training for the endurance swimming and gold star at the same time. (= and. alvin is the chiongster. i can beat him in short distance, but long distance? lose to him by A LOT kays.. and!! i got my lifesaving 3 cert!! YAY!! (=

erm. saturday. saw my dad. dont wish to say anything. nothing much anyways. he just wastes my time.

sunday... i went to church. my faith in god is dying. i no longer think the way i used to. i find it a chore to go church. during worship time, i just stand there like a block of wood. heh.. so well. after church. went to city hall. ate at this crepe place called out of the pan. i like it! (= oh and for dessert. which was so the best part of the meal, i had choco mania. it's chocolate crepe and its wrapped on a super ripe and sweet banana. there's banana cream and choco sauce and icing sugar. oh! and choco ice cream! omg it was FANTASTIC. ah couldnt stop eating!! too good ah!!

monday. which is today, btw. LSC came. unfortunately. wells. i'm working on this compo and i plan to get at least 25. the idea is totally different from others and everything. duh. aint no stereotype like everyone else. the dude for d&t didnt come. we had 3 periods of fun!! wahahs. played. yakked. whatever. so dang fun!! i didnt go to paragon and get my bag with cher like planned. i figured something really important. if i bring a bag home, (obviously my sis will see cuz she's sitting outside my room. literally. and she'll tell my mom.) my mom will know i went out. she told me to think about how i use the money. urgh. like it's hers anyways. and i aint supposed to go out after sku for that long.. obviously she doesnt know. and if i haf a new bag and dont use it, i'll be killing myself, ya know. so, instead, i went out with stacia, xy and christabel. we had bento with curry for lunch. haha we take away and sat at the open space and ate. XD lolz the for of us sitting in a row and eating. it's funny in a way... crapped for a few hours. we went to the library and played hide&seek. shauna, how teng and another gal joined in. 6 of us running around the library ad everything, funny too. =D xy's les partner is how teng, btw. we're teasing, kays. fun fun fun.. oh man. have chinese oral tomorrow!!

i have many CIPs for drama. love it. (= and drama performances too. looking forward to such stuff. haha i dont now why..



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and i remember when
you came with me that night
you said you'd never
you said you'd never
let me go..

so here i am again
sittin alone ta-night
and i remember
and i remember
what you said..

i wish i had the chance
to be with you again
like we used to
like we used to
you and me..

9/14/2006

i dont know what i should blog about. man vanessa can shake her ass! seriously. dang. hot. go to youtube and search under sexyback zac efron. ooh. and. today? test day. science, maths, music, geography. urgh. 4 in a day?! crazy fools.. haha i cant stop watching the video. (= zac efron is *screams* all that! wahahs. mad. i know and agree. ah wellsy.



http://youtube.com/watch?v=FuAM9Cl1Vt0


i wanted to go with stacia and xue xue to detention, but the dude was gonna take attendance, so i left. i went home early today. reached around 3 plus. close to 4. first time in a long time. so. blogging now. stacia wants my blog password. wonder why. i keep saying later till she's pissed with me. XD better go look at my previous posts. i'm gonna change password soon kays? sorry guys. my bad again.


so. well. bye. i guess that's all i gotta blog. toodles! (=

9/13/2006

i'll start blogging from yesterday. tuesday-school has been..'ohkay' for me. com class is just as boring.. and its so getting on my nerves. i've been so busy the past few days... coming home close to 8 everyday. and it's only the first week of school since the hols!! hello? what happened to "the first week after your school hols will be the most lac de."? hmm? where? ah well. back to the com course shit. conclusion? sucks and is a total waste of time!! my social life has gone down the drain, ohkay.. and its preventing me from getting my new bag!! sadness!! i'll get it next monday though.. (= oh. and. my air con's fixed!! woopeeeee!!! wahahs!! it was pure tortue without it!!

wed-haiix. there ain't no more drama for the resta the year due to exams which are in 2 and a half weeks!! URGH!! reeks of crap!! so. well. there wasn't any assembly today, so freaked up LSC had form teachers period, unfortunately. she took ONE WHOLE period just to talk about the newsletter from the principal. -_-" ugh. waste of time. oh and. of course. checking of socks and all. she's SO annoying!! d'oh.

i seriously needa pull up my socks. yes, my mom saw my report book. she FORCED and DEMANDED me ohkays!! and well, my grades have slipped. real fast.. and a lot. haiix.. finally. the last day of the com course, which i skipped. (= wahahs. duh. it aint useful.. all i'm doin is play computer and chat when the dude aint looking.. like that helps at all. i had a real fun day with hin wen and cherilyn. =D we totally gelled like usual. so much catching up to do! it felt like forever since we did that. and it's only been one week! we didnt meet at all. too busy playing and slacking. ^_^ i cant wait for my new bag!!


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like many others, my heart's been crushed. broken. torn. and i didnt even go out with him. i dont think he even knows i exist.. i realised after a really troubling time that it aint possible between us.. so much thinking. so much.. heartache. yup, i havent told anybody who i like yet. and hin wen, the time i tagged on your tagboard that i needa tell you something, thats the time i was gonna tell someone. but. i guess i didnt. thats the time i like him and all.. i'm totally crushed... argh. i find it so freaking hard to smile.. but i'm forced to, as usual. well duh. i gotta do this so you guys dont ask whats wrong. cuz i wont say even when you ask me;i never have. then you guys will say i'm bad and everything. so ya see why? and news for my frens..i've never told anyone who i really and tuely like. everytime i say someoe, it's someone else. yes, i lied. i'm sorry. its not that i dont trust you guys or anything, thats just the way i am. sorry again..least i'm telling ya'll now..

i long for the day i can finally get over you 100%.. when we're playing truth or dare.. and somebody asks me who i like.. and i can finally say "nobody".. that'll be the day. sisters before misters!!

he broke my heart. tore it to pieces. then he fed it to the lions. but i still <3>


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i dont know why i'm like that after the hols.. i normally dont feel like this.. this.. bad till i feel like crying 24/7. ugh. i hate this feeling. you may not see me anytime soon.. dont know where i may be. i'm out.

9/11/2006

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! i can get my darling already! muahaha!! i dont know how long i've waited to say it!! wahahs i'm uber crazy now!!

so. well. school's started. urgh. so hate it. but today's lessons weren't that bad. to begin with, their were hardly any. (= only had like.. 10 min of chinese. then chapel.. for eng, all she yakked about was nonsensical stuff which ain't as boring as hearing her talk. d&t was quite fun. =D damned stacia bribed me to help her file her workpiece. argh. so much hard work. what do i get in return? 2 bucks and she'll send me 3 HSM songs!! *SCREAMS* we played during those 3 lessons. as in. slack. play. whatever you call it. but we were making a lot of noise, thats for sure.. lols..

i cant get used to the fact that we have to wake up so much earlier now. i mean, it's only been a week.. and throughout, all i've done is eat, sleep, play (a LOT), use the toilet.. thats it. and waking up pretty late. i felt tired the whole day.. )= so many things have happened- my f-ed up air con's spoilt due to a broken compressor, i get a crumpler, msn's unusable, my report book's caused too much drama, i have a computer course from this mon to this wed, i'm getting a whole lotta new stuff, i have a lit proj due tomorrow but i havent even started. XD tons of HW still havent touched. class tests coming along. MANY of them. exams are in like. how many weeks? 3? 4? 5? i dont know. well i should. soon. if i dont wanna drop to normal, which i dont, by the way.


oh well.

9/07/2006

The term "déjà vu" (French for "already seen", also called paramnesia) describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously.

[Jay-Z:]
Uh-huh
Ready?
Uh-huh

[Beyonce:]
Let's go get 'em

[Jay-Z:]
Uh-huh
C'mon

[Jay-Z Rap]
I used to run base like Juan Pierre
Now I run the bass hi hat and the snare
I used to bag girls like Birkin Bags
Now I bag B
([Beyonce:] Boy you hurtin' that)
Brooklyn Bay where they birthed me at
Now I be everywhere, the nerve of rap
The audacity to have me whippin curtains back
Me and B, she about to sting
Stand back

[Verse 1]
Baby seems like everywhere
I goI see you, from your eyes, your smile
It's like I breathe you, helplessy
I reminisce
Don't want to compare nobody to you

[Pre-Hook]
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Oh

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu

[Verse 2]
Seeing things that I know can't be
Am I dreaming?
When I saw you walking past me
Almost called your name
Got a better glimpse and then I looked away
It's like I'm losing it

[Pre-hook]
Boy,
I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealingI can't let it go, oh

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja vu

[Jay-Z]
Yes!
Hova's flow so unusual
Baby, girl you should already know
It's H-O, light up the strobe
Cause you gon' need help tryna study my bounce, flow, blow
What's the difference?
One, you take in vein while the other you sniffin'
It's still dough, po-po try to convict him
That's a no-go
My dough keep the scales tippin like 4-4's
Like I'm from the H-O-U-S-T-O-N
Blow, wind so
Chicago of him
Is he the best ever, that's the argu-a-ment
I don't make the list, don't be mad at me
I just make the hits, like a factory
I'm just one-to-one, nothin' after me
No Deja Vu, just me and my, Oh

[Bridge]
Baby
I can't go anywhere
Without thinking that you're there
Seems like you're everywhere, it's true
Gotta be having Deja Vu'Cause in my mind I want you here
Get on the next plane, don't care
Is it because I'm missing you
That I'm having Deja Vu

[Pre-hook]
Boy, I try to catch myself
But I'm out of control
Your sexiness is so appealing
I can't let it go
Whoo...

[Hook]
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's
Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu


it's deja vu, baby. deja vu. oh oh. it's over? the song's over? wahahs. i love this song. makes me wanna dance like crazy. (= so. well. last night, my sis and i went to fish&co for dinner. along the way, we thought of a rhyme. mommy=money. yup yup. so we met her for dinner. (= (guess who pays?) oh my gosh. the food was excellent. i ate like a glutton!! =D i had the baked salmon with this herby bottom and (the best) creamy mushroom sauce. oh my gawd. it was FANTASTIC. argh. my mom and sis ate the seafood platter for 2. i took from them too. :) let's just say i was really hungry then ohkay? so well. we ate.. i had a creme brulee for dessert. the custard was perfect. although i must say the caramalized sugar was a lil bitter instead of sweet.. -_-" but only a teeny tiny bit. my sis had the ice bomber. ice cream cake. wow too. but i prefer mine. haha. =D

gosh it's friday already. dreading going to school. like i said, homework? counted in final year exam. heh. means i so gotta do this. if not i'm failing like a failing person. lols. time flies. haiix. so not looking forward to goin back to that dump.. ah wells.

ashley's tryna make me go for the outing today. not gonna happen. (= sorry, girl. anything but this, ohkay?

9/06/2006

library book problem solved. =D i paid 22.32 for the damn thing. not that much.. XD urgh. i'm 25 bucks poorer. silly xy took the dang change! great. yet another broke month. of course, adding the charges of my phone bill. which i don't really wanna know how much plus i gotta add. ah well. serves me right! (= actually i kinda like being broke. i dont know why. just like poof and bam! i like it. obviously it wont be for long. just a lil while..

i so love xue ying and val!! i went to pay for the f-ed up lost library book with xue xue. talked about the 'beauty'. victoria lim. quite a few people have told me to compile the list of 52 things we hate about victoria lim pei ru. I’ve already thought of 28. you guys should see it soon. Maybe next week, when I’m not that busy. well. duh. i don’t really like her. infact, i don’t. sheesh. cool it, yo. i just don’t like her. not such a big deal ohkay? i was thinking of compiling one for the beast. but then. i was all. pity her. getting kicked out of her own group by the ‘beauty’ and all. oh and losing her bestie to the ‘beauty’. also having her brainwashed by the hypocritical sluty bitch.. so, I guess I wont. but. like. she coulda done something to keep xy by her side, no? like talk to her on the phone so vic cant talk to her, right? and ask her to follow her when she sees the ‘beauty’ coming along. Or maybe she coulda thought that maybe.. xy wasn’t that close to her, that’s why she could be brainwashed by someone as boring as victoria, the 'beauty'. since she didn’t, she’s just as dumb. but. actually she hant lost her to the 'beauty' totally. xy's not that close to the bitch no more. hah. now ya’ll know why I don hang with these girls no more? so. well. back to my ‘story’. urr. erm. oh yeah. after paying for that crappy thing (which so cheats people’s money..) we walked around and yakked a lot. we went to my house, saw my kitty cat, walked to the bubbletea shop. I had the mango yoghurt pudding thingy and it rocked. xy had the green apple ice blended which was so ughy. we yakked so so so much. it’s been a while since I had such a heart to heart talk to that dear girl. even when we were at the bus stop, yak! so many people were starin at us coz we were lmao-ing all the time.. I seriously love that girl. cept when she starts asking why just to piss me off. (don’t cha dare try that on me, yo.)

well. to valerie now. go to http://sleepyzx.blogspot.com and read what that clever girl tagged. man zhen xiang is one hated guy. hah serves that freak right. i HAVE to make his blog my homepage. seriously. then i can cut all the hassle of insulting him and being all sarcastic and clever. (his eng sucks so i make fun of him and use more chim words than the ones in his entire vocab. =D) oh. now why i love valerie. she so insulted him too! and i was gonna tag that! then i read what she tagged. sisters! exactly alike!! muacks, yo.

there's something else i'd like to blog. hmmm can't put my finger on it yet..ah wells. i will when i think of it.. ooh ooh. i know! note to self: report book? not signed. homework: not even attempted. not even looked at. dont even know what.

oh. and. everyone in 1 joy. there's a gathering for our class on friday. meet at 1pm at the bus interchange. at the bus stop there. our class councillors will be there too! hope ya'll will come! i aint going. i dont want to. i dont intend to. dont ask.

***The Keys to Your Heart***
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.


***Your Hair Should Be Pink***
Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.


***You Are Hot***
You flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.


***Your Birthdate: May 10***
Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.
Your strength: Your ability to gain respect
Your weakness: Caring too much what others think
Your power color: Orange-red
Your power symbol: Letter X
Your power month: October


***You Are Sunshine***
Soothing and calmYou are often held up by others as the idealBut too much of you, and they'll get burned
You are best known for: your warmth


***You Are An ENFP***
The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.


***Your Musical Tastes Match: Jennifer Garner***


***What Your Underwear Says About You***
You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! ( i so totally agree! =D)
You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.

***You Are a Bunny Pop***
It takes a whole lot more than three licks to get to your center. You cheeky bunny!


***You Are 15 Years Old***
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world


***Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is***
Hips Don't Lie by Shakira
"I'm on tonightYou know my hips don't lieAnd I'm starting to feel it's rightAll the attraction, the tensionDon't you see baby, this is perfection"


***Your Linguistic Profile:***
60% General American English
20% Yankee
15% Dixie
0% Midwestern
0% Upper Midwestern


muahaha! so many tests, more coming up! =D

9/05/2006

9/04/2006

everyone's sad that steve passed away. many many people in my address book have the turtle thingy. nicole says there'll be a virus on your msn later. don't really wanna take any chances whatsoever, so.. bye turtle! like i was typing, everyone's commerating his death. it's really cool and all..but the 'sadness cloud' has not been lifted. for me, i mean. it's still there. maybe i should describe it as a fog or something else instead. it's getting thicker, suffocating the one it surrounds. me in this case. it's really.. depressing. urgh. and seeing all the turtles, makes me wanna cry more. )= people show it, they dont talk about it. his death. him. anything. nothing at all. it's like they don't want to remember him at all. like.. they're just showing the stupid turtle cuz everyone else is. they dont seem to recognise the meanin why you put the turtle.. and yeah. there IS a meaning why you put it!!

oh. and. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qp43NSELwqQ << tata young. el nin yo. hotness!! pure hotness!

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haha it's so fun to insult someone. go check it out! his tagboard, i mean. http://sleepyzx.blogspot.com urgh. i mean. hello? which idiot would have such a ridiculous blog url? and. only idiots wouldnt know how to change blogskin. (sheesh all ya gotta do is go to blogskins.com, choose a blogskin that you like and change the template on your blog, duh.) he doesnt even know how to do that! oh. and tagboard? omg. just go blogger and type in tagboard can lor. where got such stupid freaks? pure disgrace to the human race, thats what i'd say. complete buffoons who are just tryna fit in and be cool. well, i'm sorry. you dont. not even close. so far, infact. you've got yoursef further away from cool. now people hate ya. including me. i'm sorry joyce, i know you didnt know either for the blogskins and tagboard thing. but since you're on his side, i might as well drag ya in. i helped you, i told you not to help anyone, and you did. too bad, girlie. ya goin down. not too much, seein your b'day's on the 6th and you're kinda like a good fren. so, not too down. but to you, ang zhen xiang, i'll make your world a bloody hell. i hate you more then ashwiin now. woohoo. as you can tell, i'm furious. boiling. i'm feeling all high and devilish now. look out. and i'm in a whole new world of sarcasm. beat it, can it and run it, pip squeak.

i'm a lil slow. i know. i just found out steve irwin died yesterday. i don't exactly like watching animal planet and all but whenever his show's are on, i'd definetely watch em. strangely, i feel really really sad. i don't know why or for who. he.. died because of a stingray? i always thought his death would be a 'glorified one', caused by something REALLY big and strong and whatever.. a stingray? shit. i'm gonna cry..

you kinda feel this sense of.. sadness wrapped around you once you know steve's gone. i can't believe i found out about his death through jared's msn nick. how oblivious to news can i get? he contributed so much to wildlife and helped em so much.. he had to die. on the 4th of september. at 44. he could have been able to do so much more.. he coulda brought more smiles. he coulda have watched his children grow into their teen years. watch em graduate. get married. have kids. but. he left his family behind.. god. i should stop crying. i mean, it's not like i knew the guy or anything. it's kinda hard to stop now anyways.. )=

damn i can't believe he died!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! ohkay kim. stop talking about steve irwin and his death... breathee.. wait. before i stop, is it just me? the croc hunter is DEAD. any response or anything? the one who's able to those crazy dangerous stuff with animals. he's dead now.. he was gone..

his death made me realise. anyone can go at any time. any place. it could be you, oh dear reader. it could be a freak car accident. it could be on the 17th of september. posibbilities. remote, you say? how'd cha relate remote steve's death, huh? this guy is a pro with animals, a'right? what makes you think you won't die in any way, eh? not that i'm would or anything. i'm just tryna state the fact that.. life is freaking precious. and kim? stop having suicidal thoughts.

9/03/2006

hmmm, i'm wondering how i should blog this post.. i wonder why. it ain't exactly the first time i'm wondering why or anything.. it's just.. wait. holdup! WHAT?! ah wellzies. i wonder what i'm actually saying.. O.o gosh i'm weird..

NB aquathlon was.. tiring. really realllllyyyy draining. i slept for 3 and a half hours after it! and guess who was my unwanted alarm clock? hmm. my sis! singing tokyo drift in my ear! neways, the 750m swim? i let myself down.. =( the waves and the currents are woooooooooooshhhhhhh! for a singapore sea, they were STRONG. i'm surprised i'd say this.. the swim alone exhausted me. much less talk about the run. i think my timing was pretty slow.. i saw like MANY really athletic looking girls and guys. i was like *jaw drop* hahas. but i emerged from that scathing experience a fitter girl with even more open sea experience. (= lols. that'll be useful for my lifesaving. ooh and. swimming in a pool? EASY. swimming in desaru? TAKE A PLANE, DONT SWIM!!

hah my mom's chasing me for my report book for quite some time. XD diaos. i wish my sis had her report book now. then we'd both be in deep shit. not only me, unlike the present situation now..after so many days i'm still with this freakin cold. URGH! it's annoying.. oh and the internet connection? don't get me started..



she let the girls and the boys lead her away